Saturday, August 10, 2013

Heartbroken!

When my heart is hurting and my mind is racing all I can do is write! I'm not a good talker and I surely don't express my  feelings well, but for some reason when I write afterwards I feel much better. I am no writer by any means so I'm not sure how that happened!

Anyways, we just found out a very special sister in prayer and very dear friend to me has been diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer and there is really nothing the doctors can do. I'm heart broken and have no words to say or make this better except for this is all part of God's big plan! I don't know what He has in store for my  sister, maybe a miracle, maybe one of her friends, friend of a  friend, or stranger saved by God's grace and promised eternity!

She is one of a kind! I have never met a lady so full of life, faith, and just love to give! She is spunky, free living, and full of life! She has faith that can move mountains and that gives my heart peace because I know without a doubt she is okay! Of course I'm sure she will have bad days and wonder why, but she will be the first to tell you she is just fine and she believes God has this! And HE does and that gives me peace! Of course I'd love to see her healed of this horrible sickness and not go thru pain and suffering, but for some reason GOD CHOSE HER and I believe with all my heart HE will use her to do mighty things!

I am here for you sister every single step of the way! To laugh, to cry, to pray, to have fun,and to just enjoy each day and thank God for another day here on this earth together!!!

I love you SISTA and I know HE has this and our SIP's are praying you thru!!

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

So we are on our way home from 10 days in Disney World! I feel blessed that we were able to do this with our boys but I also feel those little stinkers are a bit spoiled! How do you make them appreciate and understand just how blessed they truly are? It's tough ! You want spoil them because you love them, but you also want them to appreciate it and understand there are kids out there that will never even see Disney World. They will probably never even take a vacation and these our just the Americans we live with. There are other kids around the world just hanging on for one more day because they are starved to death or dehydrated because of no clean drinking water. It's just a tough thing to make them understand and as a parent when they complain about not getting to ride one more ride its frustrating!

Don't get me wrong I am so blessed and thank God that we are blessed enough to take them on vacations and do fun things with them, I just want them to realize that they are others that are not as fortunate to do these things and I  want them to want to help others around the world and right here in our community enjoy the little things in life that we take for granted every single day! Clean drinking water, swimming in the summer, seeing the beach, all thier riding toys, their comfy beds, a house with air condioniting, a family that loves them and a Father that loves them more than we can ever imagine!

It is not easy to do and at times I want to take away all their " things" and show them just how blessed they are to have the things they need plus all the things they want!!! I know I am not the only parent that feels this way and I know every parent out there wants the best for their kids, but I would love to find a balance! We did take away their electronics during the day and made them actually go outside and ride bikes and scooters and all those things we did as kids because we did not have an iPad, iPod, I pad mini, Wii, X-Box, and everything else under the sun! 

I pray as their mom I do a better job at teaching them about the important things in life and showing them just how blessed they are and encouraging them to help others in need or just sharing their blessings with others! 

We have had an amazing summer traveling and spending time together but I am ready to get back in our routine and back to church! I have missed the past 3 Sundays because we have been out of town and I miss it and so do our boys! They know Sunday is church day and when we do not go they know it and that makes my heart happy because I know that if they have God in their lives they will understand this all and they will see just how blessed they are one day and they will want to help others!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

MISSING MY SISTA

I HAVE NOT WRITTEN IN  AWHILE!  LIFE IS BUSY WITH THREE LITTLE BOYS HOME ALL DAY NOW IN THE SUMMER AND TWO ARE PLAYING ALL STARS SO WE ARE  BUSY, BUSY, BUSY!  I HAVE HAD AN EMOTIONAL MONTH THINKING OF MY DEAR FRIEND JAMIE AND WISHING SHE WAS STILL HERE, BUT HAPPY KNOWING SHE IS PAIN FREE.

MY SWEET SISTA HAS BEEN GONE A YEAR NOW, BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THE WORDS SHE ALWAYS SAID AND LIVED BY, "ONE DAY AT A TIME."  I TRY TO ALWAYS LIVE MY LIFE THE SAME WAY. ONE DAY AT A TIME AND TRY TO ENJOY EVERY SINGLE MOMENT EVEN IN THE MIDST OF CHAOS!  YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL BE YOUR LAST OR ONE OF YOUR LOVED ONES LAST SO WHEN I FELL LIKE I AM LOOSING MY MIND I REMEMBER HER SWEET VOICE SAYING, "ONE DAY AT A TIME."

I MISS THAT SWEET SMILE SO MUCH BUT I HOLD ONTO ALL THE SPECIAL MEMORIES WE MADE IN SUCH A SHORT TIME.  SHE ALWAYS HAD A SMILE ON HER FACE AND ALWAYS SOMETHING POSITIVE TO SAY.  I WILL NEVER FORGET OUR DATE TO CASTING CROWNS, OUR GIRLS DAY TO THE MALL TO GET OUR FAKE TATTOOS, OUR SPEND THE NIGHT PARTY JUST A FEW DAYS BEFORE SHE WENT HOME TO BE WITH JESUS AND MANY MORE SPECIAL MOMENTS I WAS ABLE TO SPEND WITH HER.  I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING HER AGAIN SOON!  I KNOW SHE IS HEALTHY AND WHOLE WALKING THOSE STREETS OF GOLD!!  UNTIL THAT DAY I PRAY I LIVE MY LIFE ONE DAY AT A TIME AND GLORIFY GOD IN ALL I DO AND I THANK HIM FOR ALLOWING ME TO BE A PART OF HER LIFE HERE ON THIS EARTH.  SHE STILL IMPACTS MY LIFE TODAY AND ALWAYS WILL AND FOR THAT I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL!

Thursday, June 20, 2013

I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND, BUT I DO KNOW MY GOD IS IN CONTROL!



I LOVE THIS SONG AND HAVE CLUNG TO IT THE PAST FEW WEEKS!  I HAVE HAD ANOTHER LUMP COME UP AND WILL BE HAVING IT REMOVED AND BIOPSIED TOMORROW AND I AM ASKING GOD WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HE TRYING TO SHOW ME THROUGH THIS ALL.  I HAVE HIS PEACE AND  I KNOW I WILL BE JUST FINE IT JUST SEEMS EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND I AM HAVING SOME KIND OF HEALTH ISSUES!  DON'T GET ME WRONG I AM BLESSED AND I KNOW THINGS COULD BE SO MUCH WORSE SO I THANK GOD FOR MY HEALTH EVEN ON  THE BAD DAYS!  I JUST WISH I COULD YELL UP THERE AND ASK HIM TO TELL ME WHAT HE IS DOING:)!  I SEEK HIS WORD, I PRAY, AND I KNOW HE WILL ANSWER AND REVEAL TO ME THE BIGGER PICTURE I JUST KNOW IT IS IN HIS TIME AND NOT MINE SO I HAVE TO BE PATIENT!  THAT IS THE HARDEST PART FOR ME BECAUSE I LIKE TO KNOW THINGS NOW, HOW TO FIX IT, AND THEN MOVE ON!  I AM LEARNING AND I KNOW HE IS WORKING ON ME AND I PRAY I SLOW DOWN AND SEEK HIM HARD AND HIS WORD AND MOST OF ALL I PRAY HE USES ME TO BRING GLORY TO HIS NAME! 

PRAY FOR GOOD RESULTS AND NO COMPLICATIONS WITH THE SURGERY!  NO MATTER WHAT I KNOW HE IS IN CONTROL AND WILL SEE ME THROUGH THIS JUST AS HE HAS EVERYTHING ELSE! I DONT' KNOW WHAT HE IS DOING, BUT I DO KNOW WHO HE IS AND MY FAITH IS IN HIM!!

THANK YOU ALL AND I LOOK FORWARD TO WRITING AGAIN SOON!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Time Slow Down

I have not written in awhile! Life is busy and time is flying bye! My baby boys have finished kindergarten and my little one has only one year of preschool left and he will be there next! I wish the days would slow down, but I try to do my best to enjoy each passing moment! I realize they will soon be big boys and mom won't be as fun anymore:(! It is in those thinking moments that I realize I have to pray more! They are getting older. They are making more decisions on their own. They are trying to fit in with others. They are worried about how they look and what others think about them. There will  come a time when I have to sit back and let them make their own decisions and learn from their mistakes, but right now is my time to set good examples for them and pray they remember, but most of all I pray they find Jesus at a very young! I pray they have Godly friends I their life, Godly teachers, and always stay in church!

The power of prayer without a doubt is what made the woman and mommy I am today! Am I perfect absolutely NOT!  Not even close! I struggle everyday just to do the things I have to do. Like laundry, cook dinner, clean house, run to ball practice, ball games, guitar lessons, homework, and I still feel like I have failed everyday because even after running around all day I feel like I got nothing done:)! I struggle balancing time between my children, my husband, my family, my church, my friends, helping others and me time! It is hard, but I understand it is called LIFE:)! I am blessed to be able to stay at home with my kids and I thank God and my loving husband to support me in that! I know I will never ever look back and regret that for one minute!

As today starts the first officially week of summer with the kids home I pray for patience because if you have kids then you know that only after 5 minutes of waking somebody is screaming and crying for who knows what!!  I pray that I take moments to just pick up and go and not worry if every dish is washed or every 100 piece of clothing is washed and put away( because we all know that will never happen), or every room in the house is clean. I pray that we just enjoy this time. We enjoy each other and the many blessing we have. I pray that I will be the best mother and wife that I can be and set good examples for them! I pray that as each day is passing by they will draw closer to God because in the midst of this thing called life HE is the only thing that matters! If we all have Him then I know He will lead, guide, and direct our every step!

I love this verse:  "Train a child in the way he should go, ad when he is old he will not turn from it." -Proverbs 22:6.   I have seen it happen in my own personal life and a number of others.  Like I said earlier the power of prayer is what made me who I am today.  My mother prayed for me and always had me in church and even though I went off on my own for awhile God brought me back to Him and I am forever grateful for her prayers and will always pray over my boys and their lives!

I wish you all a fun and safe summer and look forward to writing more as the days hopefully slow down a bit this summer (at least during the day)! 

Monday, April 22, 2013

WHAT IN THE WORLD?!?

THAT IS WHAT I THINK EVERY TIME I TURN ON THE T.V. THESE DAYS!  I DON'T WATCH MUCH T.V. BUT LAST WEEK I WAS SICK AND ON THE COUCH ALL DAY FRIDAY AS I SAT AND WATCH TRAGEDY AFTER TRAGEDY BEING REPORTED. FROM THE BOSTON MARATHON BOMBINGS, TO THE EXPLOSION IN TEXAS, TO THE EARTHQUAKE IN CHINA.  HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE KILLED AND INJURED AND ALL I COULD THINK  OF; IS CHRIST MUST BE COMING SOON!  HE HAS TO BE GETTING US READY AND TRYING TO WAKE HIS PEOPLE UP, BUT THEN I THOUGHT ARE WE CHRISTIANS LISTENING?  I THINK NOW DAYS EVERY TIME YOU TURN ON THE NEWS SOME KIND OF TRAGEDY THAT HAS HAPPENED AROUND THE WORLD THAT WE BECOME USED TO IT AND IGNORE IT.  INSTEAD OF REALIZING THAT SOME OF THESE PEOPLE THAT ARE DYING ARE GOING TO HELL.  ALL BECAUSE THEY DO NOT KNOW OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST. 

I HEARD ONE OF THE NEWS ANCHOR'S REPORT THE OTHER NIGHT ABOUT THE FIRST SUSPECT BEING KILLED AND HE SAID, "HELL JUST GAINED A NEW RESIDENT."  I THOUGHT FOR A MINUTE I LIKE THIS MAN!  HE IS RIGHT AND HELL DID GAIN A NEW RESIDENT, BUT THEN I REALIZED YOU KNOW I SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT.  YES, I DO BELIEVE THAT TERRORIST DESERVED HELL BUT JESUS ALSO DIED ON THE CROSS FOR YOU AND I, BUT ALSO HIM.  HE JUST REJECTED CHRIST AND WILL NOW SPEND ETERNITY IN HELL.  I TOLD RJ HELL WOULD SOON GAIN ANOTHER RESIDENT, HIS BROTHER.  HE SAID,"YES IT WILL UNLESS HE GETS SAVED BEFORE HE DIES." I SAID YES YOU ARE RIGHT.  HE COULD TURN HIS LIFE OVER TO CHRIST BEFORE HE DIES AND HE WILL BE IN HEAVEN BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR.  MY SINS, YOUR SINS, AND HIS SINS.  NO MATTER HOW BIG OR HOW SMALL HE DIED FOR ALL OF OUR SINS.

I REMEMBER A CONVERSATION ON THE RADIO A FEW MONTHS AGO TALKING ABOUT SOMEONE RECEIVING CHRIST AS THEIR PERSONAL SAVIOR ON THEIR DEATH BED AND SOMEONE COMMENTING THAT YES, THEY WOULD RECEIVE THE GIFT OF ETERNAL LIFE IN HEAVEN. THE ONLY DIFFERNECE IS THEY MISSED OUT ON ALL THE PEACE, LOVE, AND BLESSINGS GOD HAD FOR THEM HERE ON THIS EARTH. 

WE ARE ONLY HERE ON THIS EARTH FOR A BLINK OF AN EYE COMPARED TO ETERNITY IN HEAVEN OR HELL. SO EVEN THOUGH THESE TERRIBLE TERRORIST AND CHRISTIAN HATERS MAKE ME SICK AND I CANNOT UNDERSTAND THE WAY THEY THINK OR WHY THEY DO THE THINGS THEY DO I DO PRAY THEY FIND THE LORD.  I DO PRAY THEY RECEIVE THE FREE GIFT OF SALVATION AND SPEND ETERNITY IN HEAVEN INSTEAD OF HELL.

I DO BELIEVE THE LORD IS COMING AGAIN SOON AND I AM READY, BUT I SEE SO MANY THAT ARE NOT READY AND SO I PRAY!  I PRAY FOR THE LOST SOULS ALL AROUND ME AND ALL AROUND THIS WORLD.  UNTIL HE RETURNS I WILL KEEP MY EYES ON HIM AND KNOW THAT ALL THE SUFFERING WILL SOON BE NO MORE AND HE WILL REIGN FOREVER AND EVER!

Thursday, March 28, 2013

CHILD OF GOD

I ALWAYS LOVE MY CONVERSATIONS WITH MY BABY BOYS AND THIS ONE WAS NO DIFFERENT.

 AIDEN AND I WERE RIDING DOWN THE ROAD JUST TALKING AND CAME TO THE DISCUSSION ABOUT GOD AND JESUS KNOW EVERYTHING.  I AM NOT SURE WHAT WE WERE TALKING ABOUT BEFORE, BUT I AM SURE IT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH ME NOT KNOWING THE ANSWER TO ONE OF HIS VERY DEEP QUESTIONS AND HE SAID, "WELL, GOD AND JESUS KNOW EVERYTHING."  I TOLD HIM YES THEY DO EXCEPT JESUS DOES NOT KNOW ONE THING!! I COULD TELL HE WAS SHOCKED AND WAITING FOR ME TO TELL HIM BECAUSE WE HAD NEVER HAD THIS PARTICULAR CONVERSATION BEFORE SO I TOLD HIM ONLY GOD KNOWS WHEN HE WILL SEND JESUS BACK FOR HIS CHILDREN!

 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father."-Mark 13:32

 I TOLD HIM JESUS WAS JUST SITTING UP THERE IN HEAVEN WAITING ON GOD TO TELL HIM TO COME BACK  AND TAKE HIS CHILDREN HOME WITH HIM.  THEN I TRIED MY BEST TO EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT WHEN HE COMES BACK ALL OF HIS CHILDREN WILL GO WITH HIM AND SO HIS BIG STATEMENT WAS," SO YOU ARE A CHILD"!! TALKING ABOUT ME AND I SAID, "OF COURSE I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND WHEN HE COMES BACK I AM GOING WITH HIM"!

For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.  Therefore encourage one another with these words."-1Thessalonians 4:16-18


I KNOW HIS LITTLE WHEELS IN HIS HEAD WERE JUST A SPINNING!  IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND AND GRASP THIS SO I KNOW HE WAS THINKING HARD.  I TOLD HIM THAT IS WHY IT IS SO VERY IMPORTANT FOR US TO TELL OTHERS ABOUT JESUS BECAUSE WHEN HE COMES BACK WE WANT ALL OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO COME WITH US!

OH WHAT A DAY IT WILL BE WHEN WE SEE JESUS COMING DOWN OUT OF THE CLOUDS TO TAKE HIS CHILDREN HOME!  I PRAY ALL OF MY LOVED ONES AND FRIENDS KNOW JESUS AS THEIR LORD AND SAVIOR AND I PRAY MY BABY BOYS KNOW HIM AND LOVE HIM WITH EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF THEIR SOULS!  I AM READY FOR THAT DAY, BUT I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE NOT READY FOR THAT DAY SO I PRAY GOD PLACES PEOPLE IN THEIR PATHS TO LEAD THEM TO HIM AND I PRAY I DO MY PART TO TELL OTHERS ABOUT JESUS!  I AM HIS CHILD AND I THINK GOD FOR SENDING HIS CHILD TO DIE ON THE CROSS FOR ME!  I AM SO UNDESERVING AND SO UNWORTHY, BUT HE HAS PAID THE PRICE FOR NOT JUST ME BUT THE WHOLE WORLD! IT IS FREE! WE JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE AND RECEIVE!

"He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world."-1 John 2:2